(I don’t think it’s the entire list of what’s going on in my head now)
When you think you can handle it all, you just keep doing it, until somehow you realized your focus is off, and concentrating on what someone has to say gets harder each time.
I tend to act in the spur of the moment on the first thing that comes to my mind. My mind works like a scatter of ideas, some more important than others but shouldn’t be the most important. Most of the things on the list don’t deserve a place to lodge into my brain.
I am not sure which came first; the fact that I don’t want to have emotions, so I push myself to do many things; or the fact that I want to do many things so I have no time for emotions.